For the past week the weather has been disgusting. I haven't seen the sun in so many days and I'm getting really bad anxiety. My mom says I should ask my stepmother for a few of her Xanax. I don't believe in taking medication for something that you can control with your mind, but unfortunately I've been too exhausted for the challenge. I just ( Read more... )

long story short:

ryan and i didn't go to the wilderness party for the fact that the ratio of people worth seeing/talking to vs. people we don't particularly like was grossly unbalanced. so we stayed home.

i got tipsy and amanda poked me in the cooter...repeatedly. what a tease. :p

haven't been around much. well, i've been around...just without anything to say, or maybe too much to say.

return of the dream invaders random people have been popping up in my dreams again. i think i need to be social. maybe not ( Read more... )

• supposed to go visit ryan before work (not gonna happen)
• i don't like to socialize before work (i'd rather relax)
• i haven't eaten yet (i'm out of refried beans and lettuce!!!)
• my mom is on a date with a boy
• the photo developing chemicals are eating the flesh on my fingertips

ok - so my day has not quite gone according to plan. but all variations were intentional. i decided not to go to lunch with ryan today, because he didn't call me! i know that i should have called him, but, i just can't bring myself to hear what he has to feed to me. there is too much "blah blah blah" going on right now...i don't feel like ( Read more... )